Rant about addiction

 What do I believe about addiction?

I believe it's some kind of dis-balance that is part of our fallen human makeup. I believe our mind becomes addicted and dependent on things it's not really dependent on. Everybody is addicted to something. If the path of a breatharian is possible, which I also believe to be true, then eating is an addiction, a habit that is so ingrained in us, it would seem insane for the rational mind to even contemplate being without food. I believe the etheric body comes first and the physical body is modelled on that, the etheric body doesn't need physical food to survive, it needs etherical food, it needs energy, food gives the physical body energy because it has etheric energy, the physical part of the food doesn't give us anything but physical sensations. Energy is not physical, it's not matter, it's etheric, immaterial. 

Back to addiction. I believe it's an escape mechanism to hide away from the vastness of the actual now moment. The real eternal now is infinite in its scope and the conscious mind feels this and knows this, but gets overwhelmed by it. Everybody says they want freedom but what would they do if they were to acquire this true freedom they think they want? If our mind would be freed from the constant chaos it has come to call its "aware state", it would be so overwhelmed by its freedom it would probably go insane, loose itself in the infinity surrounding it. In a way we need our rigid beliefs and limiting concepts until we can come to terms with just how much responsibility we have on our shoulders if we are to evolve to the next level of this game. 

Imagine your mind manifesting everything it thinks about instantaneously, without delay. Think about that. 

The average person would get sucked into a negative thought loop and create an everlasting hellish prison for his own mind from where he could never get out. Fear and panic would feed into itself and a cosmic psychosis - kind of the one we are experiencing now - would come about.

To get out of this mess we need to recognize the power that we have to steer ourselves in any direction that we desire, we just need to learn to control our attention. It's the strongest aspect of our being. Unwavering, steady, relaxed yet focused attention. 

Back into addiction. The awareness of our mind seeks an alternative solution to the vastness of the moment, which forces us to participate and step into an active role in the unfoldment of the story. The conscious egoic mind just wants to sit on the sidelines and scream at the players - optimally from the couch at home, yelling at the TV. 

The moment beckons us to come join it and play with it and interact, but this notion to the egoic mind is not a welcome one. Spontaneous creation where I have to put energy in? No thanks.. Rather take energy in. Rather consume an emptiness so deceptive, it seems like its filling you to the brim. Everything addiction gives is a painkiller, a band-aid on the wound that will keep falling off and need to be replaced, time and time again. 

The wound will never heal when we constantly tend to it. We need to go through the resting phase, the healing period. Sometimes it can be painful, other times not even so much. But we need to go through it, continuously. What addiction gives is a false light at the end of the tunnel, at times it even gives a false exit. Most of the times actually. You're thinking this thing - whatever - is so tough you're going through but if you partake (smoke, drink, shop, fuck, watch, check etc.) of your addiction it will make it all go away. Just take it and all your worries and fears go away, for the briefest of moments. Already when one craving is fulfilled, another one is right around the corner waiting, and around the next corner, and the next, and before you know it, you ran around the block 75 times, you lost so much time, so much energy, so much money, so much of everything, chasing your sanity around and around, not understanding you have to stop taking that same corner, you have to move on. Cross the road. Get out of town.

I believe we are all stuck chasing our sanity through external means. Everyone here is a junkie of some sort. We are addicted to substances. We are addicted to patterns, and to repeating those patterns, because they give us comfort, they keep the feared unknown at bay. We are addicted to treating ourselves like shit. We are addicted to treating others like shit. We are addicted to externalizing and projecting and judging everyone and everything.

We are addicted to being addicted. And the only way out, is to go in.

 Right into yourself and right into this moment, and realize that having made it this far, in having come to understand your predicament, and our situation here, there might not be any more chances to get this right. We need to face our lives head on and come to terms with what's going on. Our spiritual training wheels need to come off. We need to reflect very deeply and most importantly we need to remember. Remember what this whole thing has the possibility of being when we get it right.

We also need to forget. Forget all the bullshit we've been subjected to by ourselves and others. Forget the erroneous beliefs we've held so dear for most our lives. Forget that you ever thought that you're not capable of doing this.